Poor Me...

I just deleted everything I had written for this post. I did it on purpose. I'm in one of those moods today! I just feel so frustrated with everything... the phone that won't stop ringing, the phishers that keep calling, the noise from the lobby, everything. I think I'm really upset because I know I'm losing my best friend. I used to see her every other weekend and we'd spend our time doing whatever we wanted! Now I might get to see her once a month and her boyfriend is always with her. I like her boyfriend, don't get me wrong, we get along great but I don't want to spend the only day I get to see her with him. It's not like he's going anywhere- they'll probably get married and that's okay with me but I just want to see HER sometimes. It hurts to think about it because she's always been there and I had always planned on her being there, I know that eventually I won't see her at all anymore. It probably wouldn't be so bad if my other friends weren't so... I don't know... they all have kids and we're only 21! I wish I could say that none of it matters and I'll find new friends but it should matter. Everyone should have friends that they're so close to and care so much about that it's painful to think of losing them. I guess life's just not fair